Gush of blood...and an update

Ok, so I haven't really updated since just before Thanksgiving, but a LOT has happened since that time.  First,
Beta #2 = 1322!  So, it was quite a nice bump.  We were very excited.  We were cruising along just fine until Saturday night (12/4).  We ran out to the store to do a little shopping (nothing strenous), and when we got home I felt a gush of something.  I quickly ran to the bathroom and saw bright red blood.  I thought I was going to die.  How could I be having another miscarriage?  I wasn't in any pain, but after thinking about it for a while, I decided to call our RE.  I wasn't interested in going to the ER, and she totally understood.  She was able to get me in first thing Sunday morning for an ultrasound which I was grateful for.  Luckily, the bleeding stopped after about 20 minutes...then nothing else.  No pain, no more bleeding.  The next 12 hours were some of the longest of my life, and I was really stressed.  Sunday morning we got up bright and early and were at the RE's office at 0730.  We had an u/s that showed not one, but 2 (yes 2!) sacs with flickering heartbeats.  I couldn't believe it!  I was expecting to see a m/c in progress, and I certainly wasn't expecting to see a heartbeat!  I was 6 weeks and 1 day on Sunday, and one was measuring 6 wks 1 day and the other was measuring 6 weeks 2 days.  Both of them had a heartbeat of 117. 

Now, for the bad part....why all the bleeding??  Well, I have a subchorionic hematoma near one of them.  Basically, she told me these are more common with twin gestations for some reason and that I'll probably bleed again (and maybe again...and again).  Despite what some things say, the literature doesn't show higher rates of m/c with SCH (that's what our Dr. said).  I'm scared enough (without the SCH) about having another m/c, and this has me really nervous.  So, I am taking it as easy as I can.  She said to continue vaginal rest, no exercise, etc.

We have another u/s (our original appt) on Wednesday, and I'm excited to hear those 2 little heartbeats again.  I'm so scared, excited, and guarded all at the same time.  I'm praying so hard for these little guys...

Update

  8dpt...POAS and got a BFP
10dpt...POAS again just to make sure
11dpt...Beta #1 463
13dpt...Beta #2 ???

It's been a rollercoaster of a week for me.  First I had a little spotting at 6dpt that only lasted a few minutes.  It was a little too early to be my period, but I thought for sure it was the beginning of the end.  I gave in at 8dpt and POAS.  Then I saw a few drops (literally, a few) on 9dpt, so I got nervous again.  I was shocked at my beta on 11dpt, and I am anxious (to say the least) about tomorrow's beta...  

6dpt and spotting

Well, it's 6 days since my FET, and this afternoon I had some pink spotting.  Not a lot...but I'm very familiar with this pattern.  It was actually time for my estrace and progesterone at that time, and I haven't had any spotting since then (about 8 hours ago).  I do have some bad cramping though.  The one time I actually got a BFP, I had absolutely no bleeding.  And with all of my BFNs, I always start to bleed around this time (though this is a day or so earlier than usual).  So, I'm pretty sure this is coming to an end.  I'm not too surprised, and I never got my hopes up this cycle.  I'm ready to call Denver to schedule my 1 day workup, but I thought I should probably wait for a full flow before I make the call.  For now, I'll just continue my meds...and cramping...and q20 minute checks for bleeding.  ;)

3dp6dt FET

Well, I'm 3dp my FET and feeling pretty unremarkable with the exception of bloating and some serious growth of the girls...but that's all progesterone effect so I'm not even thinking about it.  I used to analyze every symptom, but now I don't let myself pay too much attention (ok, ok...I had a few twinges on the left today- but that's all).  The one thing I've finally been able to link to progesterone is the terrible back and hip pain I've had.  It never dawned on me that I had it with each cycle, but this time it started exactly one day after starting progesterone.  I'm not much of a complainer, but I've been quite uncomfortable.  Oh well.  My left hip was really hurting the worst, but today my right is worse.  I'm actually happy to have some relief on the left!! 
I had a really good and fairly relaxing (well, for me) weekend my DH.  We did lots of cooking (I like to cook ahead for busy weeks), did some shopping, had the best breakfasts, and watched some TV.  Now I'm looking forward to a busy week at work.  It's really the best thing for me because it totally takes my mind off of things, and it makes the time fly by. 

11/11 FET

11/11- Veteran's Day, FET day.  I keep hoping that 11/11 is somehow lucky.  Oddly enough, when they took me back to the OR, the time on the ultrasound screen was 11:11.  I know, a little superstitious but hey...
The transfer went well.  Both of our blasts thawed well, and it was an easy transfer.  I say it was an easy transfer because I have a tipped uterus, so there have been times when it required a little extra work (and even a stiff catheter) to do the transfer.  Well, this time, I went with an extra-full bladder (and I mean extra-full), and the transfer was a straight shot.  No one could believe it.
I was anxious leading up to today with fear that the embryos wouldn't survive the thaw.  So, I felt very relieved once they told me that the embryos looked great and were starting to hatch.  I actually felt very calm during the transfer, and it's always just a little exciting to watch the transfer on the ultrasound screen.  After laying around for 30 minutes, we were on our way.  The rest of the day was pretty unremarkable.  I did get in a nice 1.5hr nap.  For some reason, I was sooooo tired.  Now I'm just watching Oprah.  :) 
My little embies should implant within 12-24 hours of the transfer, and I am praying that they find a comfy home for the next 9 month.  For now, I remain PUPO! 

3 days away!

Our FET is finally within sight and just 3 days away.  I'm excited and nervous, but I know that we have a plan in place no matter what happens.  Luckily, I've had work to keep me busy and keep my mind off of infertility.  And, hence, my blog was quite neglected for several weeks.  I had my ultrasound last Friday, and my lining looks great.  It's always looked great, but I was still a little apprehensive going to the visit.  So, for now, it's all positive thoughts.  I've been incredibly tired (and bloated, of course) since starting progesterone on Saturday.  I always forget just how exhausted it can make me feel.  
On the Facebook front, there's another friend who announced she was pregnant with twins.  And another one of my friends just delivered.  And, another baby blanket was ordered...

 

The countdown continues...

Another week, another baby born, and 2 more on the way.  Seriously?  Is that even possible?  How could one person know so many pregnant people?  Arg.  I guess I'll just order another baby blanket.  I'm starting to feel like there should be some kind of special on them...like, buy 10 get 1 free.  :)

We are 21 days away from our FET.  I'm super-excited and scared to death.  I had my baseline u/s last week, and everything was great.  My estrogen level was nice and low, which is good.  Now I'm hopped up on estrace and feeling tired as can be.  I always forget just how tired (and bloated) it makes me feel.  Good times!
 
Last week one of my friends sent me a good luck package for my test that had all kinds of fall things in it.  I have to admit, I was feeling down and wasn't even sure I was going to pull out all of my fall decorations.  But, I did, and I'm really glad I did.  I now have all of my fall and Halloween decorations up, and the house feels so cozy.  It's bittersweet though.  I remember this time last year and how I was hoping we would have a peanut of our own to dress up for Halloween this year.  Maybe next year!